You knocked me down badly

Why? Oh, why?

This feeling, I ask why over and over again. Repeatedly. So, Dandrich Patriarca, why?

I have not really consider this, but you made me realize the most miraculous thing I thought I would not think in a million years.

Whenever I get the chance to talk with you, my heart just feels like it's going to explode. I get nervous, scared, and intoxicated all at the same time. When I see you, my heart freezes and then pounds so badly. I just want to melt away from the thought of you. Just the presence of you makes me fall head over heels. My mind would never stop thinking about you. I consider the many possibilities, but it always leads up to one conclusion. It would usually take a long time for people to have this feeling, but you, how did you do it so quickly? Every time I see you, I automatically smile and the bad thoughts would blow away and disappear into thin air. Do you think the same of me? Is this too fast?

We talked about the topic all day. Were you scared to say it? I know I was scared. I thought, "What if he does not feel the same way. Would I scare him away? Would I risk hurting myself to know his feelings?" It eventually led up to midnight and the questions were getting extremely close to saying it. Our hearts could not stop pounding. I felt shaky and was sure that one of us was going to ask a certain question that would finally express our true feelings.

The question was then ask. I felt as if the question blew me away and could not speak. We both answered eventually. We were both afraid. He finally said it.

"Joanna, I think it's okay to say that...I love you." As the words came out of his mouth and into my ears, I was too much in shock. I finally said, "..I love you too" and felt my heart pounding twice as much. I was overjoyed to hear the thought of our true feelings. We could not stop smiling for about an hour. It was 2:16 AM when we said it. I know it has only been a short time since we have been together, but it feels like it was the right time already. I do not really care about the time frame, what I thought that mattered was how close you were to that person and the feelings of each other. All the other things would not matter.

I fell for him, and he fell for me. We just basically fell in love.